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I am

2009-12-18T01:59:41Z

old enough to have to make significant decisions;
not mature enough to know how;
stuck.

boringshowers @ 2009-11-10T10:30:00

2009-11-10T16:31:24Z

feel really lost and scared. hanging in there.

to do

2009-11-08T22:09:52Z

catch up on (a ton of) coursework
make supper
buy 2 tall drinking glasses and 1 large plate for roommate
continue NaNoWriMo

greatest sandwich of all time

2009-11-07T22:23:34Z

sweet, soft whole grain bread (or any commercial "wheat" bread)
mayonnaise (preferrably homemade)
thinly sliced cucumber
canned chunk tuna
pickled beet slices

I have pined thee for so long. I have raided
many a pantry for a taste of thine ambrosia,
elusive one. how come you taste so good.

I don't know when thanksgiving is so i'm celebrating it right now.

I'm thankful:
for my smart, loving, funny, good looking, patient, forgiving, committed boyfriend and his family;
for my caring, mellow, and fun mother;
that my parents are coming up for New Year;
to have financially stable situation;
to be enrolled in an online schooling program;
for the grocery store within walking distance;
to be free of degenerative illnesses and psychoses;
for story-driven vidya;
for the music of my childhood;
for trick-or-treating past the acceptable age;
for the polite, hermitic roommate;
to have a friend I can talk to (hi jeffu);
for the French and their awesome dining establishments;
that my mother's housecat is alive and kicking;
that Tanya's studying hard and, presumably, still a cool ho.

today i made

2009-10-28T00:54:24Z

cinnamon crepes with apple filling
chicken caesar salad (zzz)
baked pickerel + mashed potatoes with a reduction of lamb and chicken stock (experimental, yes. unworkable, no!)

I might try my hand at meringues or bavarian cream with strawberries tomorrow. maybe even my own bread! and yogurt. Hmm. Lots to do.

Halloween draws nigh, you guys. :D
I'm gonna go trick-or-treating and then maybe get tapas. Also watch a scary movie if my boyfriend feels like it.
!!!

I want a female friend to talk to on messenger. Becca how come you're never online.

camel cooks

2009-10-23T19:46:06Z

yesterday:
ginger chicken on rice
vanilla panna cotta
egg fried rice

this morning:
squash puree pancakes

this evening:
beet, asparagus, spinach, goat cheese salad
chicken fried rice
flourless chocolate cake

Today

2009-10-22T02:39:52Z

+ talking to my mother
+ nippy october air
+ mild exercise
+ autumn leaves
+ giggly boyfriend
+ homemade ginger tea
+ minty chapstick
+ not having to go to school
+ holiday season
+ food blogs
+ collecting pixels
+ nostalgia-inducing music
+ having long hair

+ Current Balance: 1,592,031 NP

shitting liquid -
not finishing chores -
feeling chubby -
messy kitchen -
unmade supper -
overly rich and sweet hot chocolate that probably food poisoned me -

oh shit three days

2009-10-20T19:37:02Z

Oh my word, I'm panicking. I don't have enough cake supplies.
I don't have the gift here. It's in the other house.
I don't have any supper ideas.
fwciebrfaihtdtsshfvjehfeo !!!

We'll probably just drink and have a big meal with his father.
I'll clean the house up but there aren't any means by which to decorate.

I don't know how we're going to do Halloween, either! He'll be working :(
He says eight is too late for trick-or-treating but I NEED THE CANDY. YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW.
We even have costumes already. I'm going to be a candy raver and he's Satan.
I hope a divine force intervenes and makes him take the evening off.
I'm looking at you, Whorelivia.

:)

2009-10-18T18:29:49Z

"When I sat down, I was just feeling ... you know, kind of 'meh.' But then when our arms touched I felt so happy."

Scholarly Undertakings

2009-10-17T15:39:39Z

Name: Economics Lesson 1 Exam
Status : Completed
Score: 87.5 out of 100 points

I'm satisfied.

boringshowers @ 2009-10-11T21:09:00

2009-10-12T01:11:22Z

well, back to square one.

thx cracky

ugh

2009-09-15T10:39:29Z

fuck
fuck
fuck

pierre et gilles

2009-08-20T16:05:10Z

xposted.

Totentanz

2009-08-20T01:31:48Z

Her keyser euch hilft nicht das swert

Czeptir vnd crone sint hy nicht wert

Ich habe euch bey der hand genomen

Ir must an meynen reyen komen

I'm drinking tea, so let's have a toast, for tomorrow you and I are both nothing.

(c) Jeff the Chef

2009-08-18T03:10:29Z

boringshowers @ 2009-08-14T23:10:00

2009-08-15T04:12:22Z

Connecting to server...
You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
A word of advice: "asl" is boring. Please find something more interesting to talk about!

You: Hello
Stranger: LOOKING FOR A GIRL
You: Not to be your girlfriend, I hope
You: Because that would exhibit some grade B desperation on your part
Stranger: No actually
Stranger: I lost my daughter
Stranger: she's not so tall
Stranger: and is blond
You: Oh, I talked to a small blond girl with my Ouija board
You: she said she died today
You: Her name was something like GSUDFS
You: I think it meant Gina
Stranger: You can be righ
Stranger: what
Stranger: she
Stranger: sheee
Stranger: died ///
Stranger: how
You: I don't know, she didn't spell very well..
You: The whole session was like a Youtube comments conversation
Stranger: O NOES OMG
You: I asked if she had been a sexual abuse victim and the response was a rather cryptic "DUADDYE"
Stranger: Wait
Stranger: She missed some tooth ?
You: Yes, from what I can recall.
You: Though only milk teeth
Stranger: uhm ..
Stranger: then
Stranger: i might be my Aids child
Stranger: was it black ?
You: Oh heavens no
You: Blacks don't come in blond, silly
Stranger: If you paint it
You: Why would you do that to your daughter though :(
Stranger: Cmon
Stranger: Black is like 2008
You: Oh
Stranger: WAIT
Stranger: I SEE MY GIRL
Stranger: love you so much honey
You: :D
You: I'll never run away again, daddy
You: Unless you threaten to take away my instanuts
Stranger: TITS OR GTFO
You: B.. but
Stranger: But I am Patrick
Your conversational partner has disconnected.

more like ortho-DON'T-ist

2009-08-11T03:45:19Z

You see that molar on your right? He accidentally knocked off the tube/
bracket thing on it and so now I am only partially wired in the mouth.
I'm scheduled to get the rest off in September.

Becca shall arrive tomorrow morning!

I miss my boyfriend.

boringshowers @ 2009-08-09T23:15:00

2009-08-10T03:25:52Z

a bactrian guide to common courtesy

2009-08-07T22:36:39Z

1. if you're caught staring, smile.
2. if you use the last of the toilet paper, replace the roll.
3. if you claim to have rares, post them.

Introducing the HOT new dance-synth-shoegaze-ustrial craze sweeping the instanuts...

2009-08-03T18:36:07Z

With ...

BECCA as lead guitarist
LOLI-CHAN on lead vocals
and CAMEL bangin the shit out of a boxtable-cum-drumset!

Three spunky yet deeply melancholic 16-year-old girls MAKIN SOUNDS for all the aural masochists in the wired. Are you creaming your pants yet?
GOOD because we have a concert coming up in September.
Rumor has it that those lucky fans who buy tickets in advance will be reserved space onstage to mop up the blood after loli cuts herself! While singing! You just don't see that kind of talent anywhere else, folks.

Photographic apparatuses encouraged, food notsomuch.

Thank you and keep rocking. \m/

boringshowers @ 2009-08-03T11:16:00

2009-08-03T16:17:14Z

We are out of food, and the grocery store is closed today (we drove to it twice this morning before working that out.)
No omelettes, no baking, no french toast, no hard-boils.

It feels so nice to have a friend, especially a friend who is wholly a friend.
It makes me feel alright to be me, because I know it's good to be me.

Cracky dramas have resurfaced! I am excited to see how it all pans out.

for becca - "bizarre"

2009-08-03T05:04:55Z

boringshowers @ 2009-06-05T16:40:00

2009-06-05T20:41:01Z

http://mitchieville.com/12037/ein-volk-ein-reich-ein-really-big-cow/

that is all.

boringshowers @ 2009-05-23T21:18:00

2009-05-24T02:22:41Z

I just remembered something -

At breakfast time, my boyfriend's mother asked me whether I'd considered doing modelling before. She's so adorable!
Also the waitress thought he and I were siblings.

boringshowers @ 2009-05-10T14:40:00

2009-05-10T19:04:30Z

It's Sunday, and only six days left until I get to see him again!
It feels like it's been so much longer than a month. Time is kind of viscous, I think. But suddenly when I'm with him it's running running running!

I won our second crawl competition, but only 'cause he gave me an extension. I plan to win this one fair and square but I know I won't.

I've been all over the place, emotionally. Sometimes I wonder how it's possible for someone of my volume to contain such a vast spectrum of feelings and then I remember HERP DERP PUBESCENCE.

It freaks me out when I remember that besides yesterday, I haven't weighed myself in months. And I don't think I will do it habitually, even if I have a scale available to me. Scales are all so different from each other, I never know which one to trust. Probably the better choice is the one in my pediatrician's checkup room, but I still have my doubts.

I'm glad the DDoS bullshit is over. My go-to time waster is back, hooray!
I'm not allowed to go on iichan.ru anymore though, so I guess it's a tradeoff.

I am so, so nervous about going to school tomorrow. When I think about it, I get nauseous but in the way that I can't even throw up, and my head feels hot and I can't be physically comfortable in any position ARGH

My father is leaving tomorrow. Thank goodness, he was really starting to be a fistula in the butt. Today he said we're going to the Mexican restaurant and I got excited because I wouldn't have to be alone and pathetic while my boyfriend is studying and having fun with his drinking buddies, but just now my father decided he doesn't want to go anymore. Probably because he and my mother were arguing. Fffffuuuuuuuuu-

Here, have a funny russian fansub.